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I’ve Never Been To Me
( Charlene )

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You’re a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I’ve no doubt you dream about the things you’ll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you…..

Oh, I’ve been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I’ve been to paradise but I’ve never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don’t just walk away
‘Cause I have this need to tell you why I’m all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won’t you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies….

Oh, I’ve been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I’ve sipped champagne on a yacht
I’ve moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed ’em what I’ve got
I’ve been undressed by kings and I’ve seen some things that a woman ain’t supposed to see
I’ve been to paradise, but I’ve never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It’s a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we’d like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It’s that little baby you’re holding, it’s that man you fought with this morning
The same one you’re going to make love with tonight
That’s truth, that’s love……

Sometimes I’ve been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I’d be bitter from the sweet
I’ve spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady……
I’ve been to paradise, (I’ve been to paradise)
But I’ve never been to me

(I’ve been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me
(I’ve been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I’ve sipped champagne on a yacht)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me
(I’ve been to cryin’ for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me
(I’ve been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me

It all started Thursday night….went out partying with Max, Nick, and met other friends out. On Friday, there was more of the same. On Saturday, I went with Robin to his parent’s place for Christmas. Came back on Sunday and really wasn’t interested in going out, but went out anyway. It was an intense weekend.

More details later. For now I am exhausted.

Oh yeah, and Robin get me the Sims 2: Holiday Package. Which means I can further extend my twisted Sims 2 environment. Hee hee.

Hugs to everyone.

…the more that I like it!

It is nice to have a place where one can spill their electronic guts…

…This is a public service announcement…

NEVER go to bed chewing gum.

That is all

I am not sure why I am a bit depressed. The holidays are supposed to be a nice time. A fun time. But I don’t feel happy or fun. I am supposed to spend Christmas with Robin and his family, and I am grateful for the invite, but I feel as if I am too depressed to participate. That and being my ex would make christmas quite a strange event. His parents like me and that is cool enough, but there would always be this feeling like “what is he doing here…they are not together…”

But besides christmas, for some reason i find that i am just bored. i have gone to the gym to try and get rid of some of the boredom, but at the gym i don’t feel overly motivated. even though i have dropped 5 kilos because i have an aggressive february target to lose the travel weight i picked up.

i guess i have some other things to share as well, but not in the public post. maybe those things relating to my friends have impacted me in both very good and very not-so-good ways.

At any rate, just wanted to post a mini-update. I am sure that things will get better and that this down feeling is really just temporary. But untilnext I write…seasons greetings 🙂