Today was just such a bad day at work, that it sapped my energy to be at the beach. I gave my bottles of wine away and just ran home at top speed. I just came back to the apartment (I don’t even have the mental state to clean it, and it’s kinda messy). And I just set the CD player to random and then it went to the Sarah McLachlan “Surfacing” CD. And that just kinda pushed me right over the edge. So if you wanna know how I feel, here are the lyrics:<\/p>\n
Full of Grace <\/p>\n
The winter here’s cold, and bitter
\nit’s chilled us to the bone
\nwe haven’t seen the sun for weeks
\nto long too far from home
\nI feel just like I’m sinking
\nand I claw for solid ground
\nI’m pulled down by the undertow
\nI never thought I could feel so low
\noh darkness I feel like letting go<\/p>\n
If all of the strength and all of the courage
\ncome and lift me from this place
\nI know I could love you much better than this
\nfull of grace
\nfull of grace
\nmy love<\/p>\n
So it’s better this way, I said
\nhaving seen this place before
\nwhere everything we said and did
\nhurts us all the more
\nits just that we stayed, too long
\nin the same old sickly skin
\nI’m pulled down by the undertow
\nI never thought I could feel so low
\noh darkness I feel like letting go<\/p>\n
If all of the strength
\nand all of the courage
\ncome and lift me from this place
\nI know I could love you much better than this
\nfull of grace
\nfull of grace
\nmy love.<\/i><\/p>\n
It’s been an afternoon where I could do nothing right, despite my best efforts. It’s emotional exhaustion. Hopefully it passes soon.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Today was just such a bad day at work, that it sapped my energy to be at the beach. I gave my bottles of wine away and just ran home at top speed. I just came back to the apartment (I don’t even have the mental state to clean it, and it’s kinda messy). And … Continue reading <\/span>